Posttraumatic

I only want to find a way
to live in dignity
but what shall I do
when my enemy is in me

Posttraumatic
Stress disorder

someone said to me
someone knows what It means to me
someone said how I feel 
someone knows what I have to do 
but I don´t 


my personal agent says to me
after all that I´ve done to you
you will be happy to die
he knew everything ´bout me


I always tried to fight against it
I always want to take revenge
but I couldn´t, it was always 
stronger than me
because it´s in me

they don´t know my nightmares
they don´t know my fear
they don´t know my flashbacks
when all the violence is in me


I shout: I´m not mad
I cried: get out of my head
I`m definitely not ill
get out or I will kill
or I will kill me

Posttraumatic
Stress disorder
Posttraumatic
Stress disorder
Posttraumatic
Stress disorder