{"id":189,"date":"2013-04-29T18:11:50","date_gmt":"2013-04-29T16:11:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/?page_id=189"},"modified":"2020-06-14T15:56:53","modified_gmt":"2020-06-14T13:56:53","slug":"posttraumatic","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/?page_id=189","title":{"rendered":"Posttraumatic"},"content":{"rendered":"<pre>I only want to find a way\nto live in dignity\nbut what shall I do\nwhen my enemy is in me\n\nPosttraumatic\nStress disorder\n\nsomeone said to me\nsomeone knows what It means to me\nsomeone said how I feel \nsomeone knows what I have to do \nbut I don\u00b4t \n\n\nmy personal agent says to me\nafter all that I\u00b4ve done to you\nyou will be happy to die\nhe knew everything \u00b4bout me\n\n\nI always tried to fight against it\nI always want to take revenge\nbut I couldn\u00b4t, it was always \nstronger than me\nbecause it\u00b4s in me\n\nthey don\u00b4t know my nightmares\nthey don\u00b4t know my fear\nthey don\u00b4t know my flashbacks\nwhen all the violence is in me\n\n\nI shout: I\u00b4m not mad\nI cried: get out of my head\nI`m definitely not ill\nget out or I will kill\nor I will kill me\n\nPosttraumatic\nStress disorder\nPosttraumatic\nStress disorder\nPosttraumatic\nStress disorder<\/pre>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I only want to find a way to live in dignity but what shall I do when my enemy is in me Posttraumatic Stress disorder someone said to me someone knows what It means to me someone said how I feel someone knows what I have to do but I don\u00b4t my personal agent says to me after all that I\u00b4ve done to you you will be happy to die he knew everything \u00b4bout me I always tried to fight against it I always want to take revenge but I couldn\u00b4t, it was always stronger than me because it\u00b4s in me they don\u00b4t know my nightmares they don\u00b4t know my fear they don\u00b4t know my flashbacks when all the violence is in me I shout: I\u00b4m not mad I cried: get out of my head I`m definitely not ill get out or I will kill or I will kill me Posttraumatic Stress disorder Posttraumatic Stress disorder Posttraumatic Stress disorder<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"parent":38,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-189","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/189","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=189"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/189\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1623,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/189\/revisions\/1623"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/38"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gulis.at\/musik\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=189"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}